On My Heart: Vlad. Part 2.

So I feel very very inadequate.  And I feel like there have to be a lot of people thinking, "What does she think she's doing?  She's not that great.  Definitely not enough to provide a good home for 15 year old for awhile.  He's just going to be bored.  Why does she think she's this great person who can do such a thing?"

And I suppose it's me that feels that way.  I hope that's just the enemy talking.  Telling myself it is.  I cannot believe how heavy Vlad is on my heart.  I feel like I've looked at his picture enough that I'm completely desensitized to it.  As though it's the picture of a boy I saw in a magazine once or something.  But the only thing becoming desensitized can do is make me forget about him.

And I do feel so crazily inadequate.  And I do feel like a fraud for taking this on.  Because I am not that great.  I mean, really, I'm just me.  Nothing extraordinary happening here.  And it's so tempting to put the whole thing off and let deadlines go by.  Though I am not sure if my heart would let me forget.  And my mind is reminding me that even if I am inadequate, the other option is that nothing happens.  Nothing changes for Vlad.  And what kind of an alternative is that?

So I just made an account on ChipIn to track donations for Vlad.  I linked the Paypal account so that it goes directly to Children's Cultural Connection.  Remember that any donations are 100% tax deductible.

I've already had a few friends tell me that they would like to donate--thank you!  And another friend is putting together a really cool fundraiser for my Arizonians--thank you!  Remember that no gift is too small.  And no prayer is too small.  Thank you to everyone that has been praying for Vlad.  Thank you so much.