Back to the boring post. I feel a little down. I was going to help start a MOPS group here in Maricopa this year, but it hasn't really come together with much anyone else but me. Which isn't even why I necessarily feel down. I'm just trying to decide what to do for the year. Trek it up to Chandler and try a new MOPS group? Which means starting all over from scratch again--making new friends. Always making new friends. New friends. Or trying the MOMS group here in Maricopa that is at a different church. Making new friends. And it seems like I'm always getting involved in multiple churches instead of just one. Which is fine, but... disjointed.
I'm just always making new friends. And I have plenty of stinking awesome friends as it is. And (I've written about it before) every time I start over there's more distance to cover. I'm older, I'm seemingly less cool, and I must once again eventually find my random coolness asserted. (Assuming we get that far...) Which usually means I say something mildly scandalous in good fun with a group of fellow believers that I hope share a similar freedom.
Oh, what am I even writing here? I just feel down. I'm tired of starting over. And I didn't really picture that I'd be starting over by moving to Maricopa. I still trek it up to visit friends sometimes, but logistically it would be much nicer to have friends closer by. And then there's the small possibility of moving to Lincoln sometime relatively soon (but maybe not!) and that just messes with a girl. Three years of marriage as a nomad planning on moving to Guam can really mess with you as well. I just want to settle somewhere. But I don't want to start making friends again and again. I'm just tired. I want the close friendships you get from time without all of the effort and investment...
P.S. If my title were a poem:
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I think you should continue to make new friends for the rest of your life. If you don't then you are depriving an awful lot of people one of the best, most fun-loving and hilarious friends they ever could have had! Plus, the more friends you make the better chance you have of someday having a hugely long road-trip where everywhere you stop you know someone. Therefore, no hotel bills! So, really, you can consider making new friends a budget wise decision that will help your family out for future vacations. Either way, I hope that if you do move to Lincoln, you will consider staying at hotel Brown sometime in the future! I miss you my Maricopa friend!
ReplyDeleteHow funny to read a post that seems like it was written in my head...only I wouldn't use words like "Maricopa" and "Guam." Making friends was so easy in college, when we all lived, ate, studied and played together in dorms. Now it's just one more exhausting thing, especially after pouring all your energy into corralling kids.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya, sister.